After what seems like an endless amount of thinking, talking, and tarot card readings, I think I have finally come to realize something.
(My posts are too wordy. Isn’t the kitty cute?! Sometimes I feel like I am looking at my life like that, through a magnifying glass, sifting and sifting to keep the bits that are working and get rid of the bits that no longer fit.)
Firstly, that I like to play someone who doubts things on TV because I feel like it makes other people more comfortable with my intuitive-based lightning-fast decisions. I’m so good at it that I seem to fall for my own act. So I start doubting when I know exactly what I really want to do. People who love me have pointed this out to me recently. They’re right.
Secondly, with all the internal searching and fixing and healing and sorting that I have been up to for the past few years, I have been staying away from patterns. Because I didn’t like my life the way it was, so to fix it, I figured I should try everything new. Which, while not really a *stupid* conclusion, in the end I don’t think it is quite right. Some of my patterns of behavior are just patterns and not bad. Circumstances around them, people caught in the patterns with me might not have been ideal, but a few of my old patterns are really just me.
(I’ll admit that some really needed to go, and slowly we are waving bye-bye to those.)
However, speaking of patterns a trip to my masseuse/chiropractor goddess has left me feeling woozy but worked out and in line, which will be nice once my body processes the toxin and adjusts to blood flowing again. And she noticed my weight loss right away, and said my whole body is structured differently at this point, so that was great to hear. Go Wii Fit!
Lastly, I went to visit a ring that I feel in love with a few months ago, and in a sudden intuitive, lightning-based thought, I might have a scheme for making it mine. I am very, very excited about this!
Or I will be, after me and my sore head go take a little nap….
Mirrored from Oasis Stories.